I was where you are – unhappy with my body, trying everything to try to lose weight, manipulating my food and exercise, stuck in body hatred and shame.
It was exhausting. Calorie counting, hours at the gym, unending food rules, and restriction all occupied my mind constantly and zapped all my time and energy. With too much restriction came binging, which led to flip flopping – eating hardly anything, eating tons, lightheaded from eating too little, sick from eating too much. I had nothing left to give.
It seemed hopeless. How could I ever not be on a diet or ever not be worrying that I would gain the weight that I had worked so hard to lose? Would this be it? Days starting with good intentions and ending with guilt and frustration?
I got to the point where I was sick of what my life had become. It was like my daily purpose was to exercise, make sure I only ate a minuscule amount of calories, and not mess up! This was a depressing realization but one that shook me out of this vicious cycle. I did not want to live like this.
I had to relearn how to eat normally, how to listen to my body’s hunger and fullness signals, how to nourish myself. I used to exercise in order to earn food or to work off those extra calories and I slowly transformed my relationship with exercise to one of enjoyment. I broke all my food rules. I ate out, ate carbs, ate fat, ate at night, ate scary foods, ate dessert, and ate more. I learned to trust myself around food and trust in the wisdom of my body in what and how much I ate.
My life started to be more than just about me and my body. I had time and energy to give to my husband, my family and my friends. I no longer was going around with a cloud of guilt hanging over me for eating too much or not exercising enough. I became confident eating at parties and restaurants. I was finally able to have a piece of cake and eat it too! I actually looked forward to going for a walk or lifting weights. I started cooking instead of just looking at recipes of food I wouldn’t let myself eat. I moved from negativity about my body to neutrality and then to positivity (hey, that’s a cute butt I’ve got!).
The real game changer was that I found freedom. Freedom to eat what I wanted when I wanted. Freedom to move my body in a way that felt good. Freedom to rebel against the lifetime of diets our culture has in store for women.
I have dedicated myself to helping other women experience this freedom, so they can spend their time and energy living, enjoying and relishing.
I care because I know exactly how it feels to be stuck in the toxic diet cycle and I know how it feels to break free.
Curious about how to detox from diets and experience food freedom, true nourishment and lasting weight loss?